So, here I am in the 3rd year of my journey. If there is one thing I have learned, it is that I really never seem to stop learning. I never stop learning about my abuser or why life had to turn out the way it did. And I never stop learning how to shape my life into something I can be happy about and enjoy, the way life is suppose to be. The blessings I receive every day simply continue to amaze me. Knowing how Jesus has always been there for me, even when I didn't realize, is so very comforting. I have seen so many miracles just in the past few years! I have no doubt that Jesus walks down this journey with me, holding my hand and leading me along the path I was meant to walk down.
I wouldn't trade my life for any other because it has been a truly learning experience for me. After all, that is what life is about isn't it? I believe it is all about learning to live so that we may die at peace and live in our eternity with the wisdom we gathered from our lives here on Earth. I also believe that only the strongest souls are subjected to lives full of abuse. It doesn't feel like we are strong at times but, we are much stronger than we think. How else would we be here and able to help one another to the light that changes our lives forever, for the good?
I have struggled along my journey and at different points in time, I actually thought "Okay, I'm going to be alright now, I got this!", Only to discover a little further down the path that I wasn't as far along as I thought in my healing. Have I progressed along the way? Yes, very much so, no doubt. Have I learned lessons in life? Oh yes, very many lessons learned along the way. Do I believe I will ever be completely healed without old memories coming back to haunt me? No, I don't believe healing from the tremendous Emotional Abuse I was subjected to through 32 years of my life is something that will just completely fade away from my memory. Nor would I want it to because I believe it is better for me to remember the signs AND the lessons learned.
I haven't been healthy for some time now, but I am fighting to make that all important come back. I now see how my past abuse, and the heart ache that it put myself and my children through, is the largest cause of my bad health. I'm not asking for sympathy, although prayers are always welcomed. I want people to know that Domestic Abuse, which includes Child Abuse, is very damaging to the victims' health. It not only, at times, ends lives but it can damage lives in so many ways. Ways in which it becomes life threatening and most times long lasting. Living many years with abuse can cause many different mental illnesses and also many different physical illnesses. That is a fact. People need to learn that turning the other way is NOT the right thing to do if they see signs of abuse. The general public needs to learn the signs of abuses so they may spot them when they see them happening. Reporting suspicions of abuse is the right thing to do every time! It can always be done anonymously. What does it hurt if the report is investigated and found to be a false call? It doesn't hurt a thing, yet if it proves to be abuse, it could save a life or even several lives. Many people are killed in Domestic Abuse homes. The victims that do survive are usually affected in many ways for the rest of their lives. How do we accomplish getting this message out to our society? Well, we use our voices, tell our stories of abuse and overcoming the abuse, break the silence and break the chains of abuse. It is a rather slow progress but, it is working! We can't give up, we must let our lights shine.
I have been through a huge transformation since taking the first steps toward my abuse free life. I am still finding myself going through changes. Changes that make me feel more complete, more alive and more blessed than ever before. If you have been through abuse of any type, please don't ever lose hope for brighter days because, if you put forth the effort to strive, no matter how tired you become of trying, those brighter days are coming for you! Will every day be bright? No, but is it always bright and happy times for anyone through life? The secret is to always keep striving; don't ever lose hope; learn to love yourself and others; learn how to forgive. And if you feel you simply can't forgive, then pray for that ability because it is very important to your healing. if you can't forgive at this time, at least understand that you are NOT to blame, you are stronger than you think, you are special and you have every right to live the life that God meant for you to have. Admitting that we were abused and then realizing that it wasn't our fault are huge steps forward along our journey. Probably the two most important steps that we take. May God bless you and lead you safely down your path of healing.
I wouldn't trade my life for any other because it has been a truly learning experience for me. After all, that is what life is about isn't it? I believe it is all about learning to live so that we may die at peace and live in our eternity with the wisdom we gathered from our lives here on Earth. I also believe that only the strongest souls are subjected to lives full of abuse. It doesn't feel like we are strong at times but, we are much stronger than we think. How else would we be here and able to help one another to the light that changes our lives forever, for the good?
I have struggled along my journey and at different points in time, I actually thought "Okay, I'm going to be alright now, I got this!", Only to discover a little further down the path that I wasn't as far along as I thought in my healing. Have I progressed along the way? Yes, very much so, no doubt. Have I learned lessons in life? Oh yes, very many lessons learned along the way. Do I believe I will ever be completely healed without old memories coming back to haunt me? No, I don't believe healing from the tremendous Emotional Abuse I was subjected to through 32 years of my life is something that will just completely fade away from my memory. Nor would I want it to because I believe it is better for me to remember the signs AND the lessons learned.
I haven't been healthy for some time now, but I am fighting to make that all important come back. I now see how my past abuse, and the heart ache that it put myself and my children through, is the largest cause of my bad health. I'm not asking for sympathy, although prayers are always welcomed. I want people to know that Domestic Abuse, which includes Child Abuse, is very damaging to the victims' health. It not only, at times, ends lives but it can damage lives in so many ways. Ways in which it becomes life threatening and most times long lasting. Living many years with abuse can cause many different mental illnesses and also many different physical illnesses. That is a fact. People need to learn that turning the other way is NOT the right thing to do if they see signs of abuse. The general public needs to learn the signs of abuses so they may spot them when they see them happening. Reporting suspicions of abuse is the right thing to do every time! It can always be done anonymously. What does it hurt if the report is investigated and found to be a false call? It doesn't hurt a thing, yet if it proves to be abuse, it could save a life or even several lives. Many people are killed in Domestic Abuse homes. The victims that do survive are usually affected in many ways for the rest of their lives. How do we accomplish getting this message out to our society? Well, we use our voices, tell our stories of abuse and overcoming the abuse, break the silence and break the chains of abuse. It is a rather slow progress but, it is working! We can't give up, we must let our lights shine.
I have been through a huge transformation since taking the first steps toward my abuse free life. I am still finding myself going through changes. Changes that make me feel more complete, more alive and more blessed than ever before. If you have been through abuse of any type, please don't ever lose hope for brighter days because, if you put forth the effort to strive, no matter how tired you become of trying, those brighter days are coming for you! Will every day be bright? No, but is it always bright and happy times for anyone through life? The secret is to always keep striving; don't ever lose hope; learn to love yourself and others; learn how to forgive. And if you feel you simply can't forgive, then pray for that ability because it is very important to your healing. if you can't forgive at this time, at least understand that you are NOT to blame, you are stronger than you think, you are special and you have every right to live the life that God meant for you to have. Admitting that we were abused and then realizing that it wasn't our fault are huge steps forward along our journey. Probably the two most important steps that we take. May God bless you and lead you safely down your path of healing.